Yikes!

I received my first comment to a post (Thanks for the warm welcome, Tamara) so now it hits home that people might actually be reading my blog. I guess that's the goal in blogging, but all of a sudden I'm worrying what people might think: she's boring, she's clueless, she rambles... Basically, it boils down to my lifelong fear of being judged. Why do I care so much what others think? What does it matter what people think about my house, my clothes, my weight, my blog... What's important is what's in my heart. I know this and yet I struggle with my irrational fear of judgment in some way or another almost every day. I guess what I really fear is judgment that leads to isolation and rejection. A couple of weeks ago, our pastor challenged us to fear God's disappointment more than man's disapproval. So I pray: God, give me the wisdom to fear what I should.